Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Love, Pain and Healing

My heart is so full of love right now as a Mother.  However, it aches for the things that I discovered happened to precious souls when I unable to stop it.   It turned my stomach and made me want to cry in huge wales of screaming knowing just a few things that were experienced.  I am amazed at their strength...how each one of them stands today on their own two feet walking boldly and successfully into the future as talented beautiful adults.  I am thankful they are here in my life, they know they are loved, they are alive and I pray hopeful prayers of healing for the wounds that I could not stop.   

I see the flame flickering and scorching the intricate and delicate web of lies that was woven over and over.  Told so many times to make it be felt as truth but it was only lies. An illusion created to serve a purpose of nothing but cruelty for everyone involved except for the one person's gain.  I see the web wither and burn under the flame of truth the delicate strands disappearing into the air as if it was never there.  It washes away like water washing over you cleansing away the mud out of your eyes.  My heart is full but aching and reeling with the reality of the pain they faced with such young tender hearts. Seeking love, approval, kindness, some type of stability from someone who was incapable of giving it. 


So I look to the future, I look to hope, I look on with the knowledge that wounds can heal, I have healed so many in my lifetime.  It's not easy but necessary to remove the power the past has over you. The harm that was done to you, the hurt unimaginable. Release it, take a deep breath, acknowledge it, speak your truth, each one of you, speak it, and release it. Let it burn away, let it be gone out of you forever so that when you do speak of it ... It feels as if it was not even you that it happened to anymore because your wound is healed fully. When it is gone and there is no more pain surrounding the horrible injustices that you endured fill it up with the good things, love, joy, and happiness. Your strength is immeasurable know that and never forget it.